Torture Started Today

I did it. I went and enrolled at the gym today after I dropped the girls off at school. I tried to come up with every excuse not to but deep down I knew what I had to do. So, I went and actually worked out for almost 2 hours. I already cannot move my extremities very well and I also have to ask myself why I showered when I got up this morning- as I had to do it again after the gym. Also enrolled hubby- so he has no choice! We are not what one would consider "chubby"- but compared to what we used to be we could use a tune-up. It makes me think, too that this is a whole new environment where people will see me and hear me and occassionally talk to me about this or that. It is a new opportunity to talk about God to someone who may not know Him. The thought keeps coming to mind that "You may be the only Bible some people read". What a huge resposibility! I know I have a terrible temper- it is my downfall and I am the first to admit it. I am constantly trying to work on it and do better. I am human and I do slip sometimes. I try to learn from my mistakes. I just get frustrated when people claim to be church-goers and Christians and then they go and curse or cheat on their spouse or act in a way that no-one would ever guess they went to church. Then when they say something about how they go to church - these people that have seen them behave like that think "Oh-well, it must be okay to do all those things and still claim to be a Christian." The talk has to match the walk, people. You can't be one person to your church friends and then be another to your non-church friends. It does not work that way. Again- I am not by any means perfect- but I do try my best most of the time. Going to church does not make someone a Christian. If you claim to be one, people are going to be looking at you a little harder and scrutinizing you a little more and it really shouldn't matter- because you should be doing your best to be your best. I think of all the chances I have had to witness and instead just made small talk or went with the flow and said nothing. Does what comes out of my mouth (or my keyboard in this case) show that I am a Christian? Do my actions allow people to see Christ through me? Not always. I will strive to be better as life goes along. I will watch what I say and do in new environments- like the gym and will try to be a good and positive influence. That is my goal. We should always be striving just to touch the hem of His garment. What do people see from you? What do they hear from you? It is something to think of.