Reservations

Not talking about the good kind of reservations- talking about the bad kind. My friend the architect brought by the plans for our house last night with the upstairs and everything. She did everything we wanted her to cause she is cool like that. But..... already several unexpected costs have come up with this house- where the lot is concerned. We paid way too much for the lot(s). We know that. And before we bought the lots, everything pointed to "go" to buy them. Since then, nothing has gone right and all these extra costs for all kinds of stuff have just come out of nowhere. Now, we have not paid for this extra stuff, yet- but we will have to when we start building. This is supposed to be our forever house- so I have been very stressed about how much this is all going to end up costing us when it is all said and done. Not to mention that we have found that we are going to have to build a new lakehouse before next year also. I don't want to be bound to a house financially. It wouldn't be so bad if we didn't have so much money in the lots. Part of me really wants to look around a little bit more to make sure there is not something a little cheaper and maybe bigger to build this thing on. Our lot is an acre (because we bought 2 half acre lots) which is big for a subdivision- but our house just about dwarfs it anyway. This is a house that should be on a couple of acres at the least. It is very southern and has these beautiful porches and I just want to make sure we do the right thing. But, I don't know that we could find a couple/few acres to put it on that would not cost a fortune, either. Brian is not happy with me right now, but I have to make sure and I have to be comfortable with all of this and he understands that. We are both very frustrated. Such a big decision. I would not mind looking a little more in my "hometown" because land is so much cheaper there than it is where we are. I don't know. Maybe I am just getting cold feet because it is getting closer to being ready to build and I am freaking out at the last minute. I know my friends reading this are just shaking their heads and laughing at me right now! But Brian said last night that we are not in a hurry and we can stand being in the "Brady Bunch Special" a little longer! I'm glad he is so patient with me and my craziness. Anyway- pray for me and for him that we will just know for sure what to do. The lots we bought are in a very desireable area and they would sell for at least what we paid for them-- so I am not worried, I just want to do the best thing for us. I did not expect so much stress with this- I thought this was all going to be fun and easy. Life just doesn't go the way you plan sometimes, eh? My mom told me last night to just "step back and punt" and take a breather for a little while. That sounds good to me. She's smart like that sometimes. So, I am going to step back and not think about it for a few days. I am comfortable knowing that God is in control. I know that He will show us what we should do if we just stay still and listen for a moment. That is harder than it sounds to someone like me who has a hard time giving up control, though! If this is all I have to worry about I know my life is pretty good- but I do hope we can resolve this before too long......