Deep Thoughts

People who know me know that I like to analyze things and try to get a lesson or a "moral of the story" out of everything. I just thought I would share one of those moments that I had at the lake a couple of weeks ago. Annelise has learned to swim without her lifejacket. (Not such a small feat for those of you who have seen her- she is a solid rock, so trying to keep herself buoyant is not easy....) But- she did it and she tries constantly to see how long or how far she can swim without help. Most of the time she waits until she can barely hold her head above the water to say- "Mommy hold me", or "Throw me my lifejacket". (Of course, either I or her father am right there with her because of our paranoid nature.) Anyway- I thought about how often we do that with God. When we are tired and exhausted from doing everything ourselves- we usually wait until we are about to drown to call on Him to help us. Even though He is right there beside us the whole time - we still just go and go without His help until we are exhausted and can barely keep our heads above water before we say, "Okay, God, I need you, I can't do this any longer." Why don't we just give Him the job in the first place? He actually wants us to. He tells us in the Bible- "Come to Me, all who are weary and I will give you rest." He also tells us "Cast all your cares upon me because I care for you". I have learned over the past couple years that there is nothing that God can't or won't handle. I have gotten better about just giving Him control as soon as I see a problem because I have learned that He is much better at handling things than I am. Why wouldn't I do that? It doesn't make sense not to. I just give it to Him and let go and He will take care of it. We know we are going to have difficult times and we are going to go through some hard stuff- but why not let Him carry us through it from the beginning? Why wait until you are at the point where you are about to break before you ask for His help? I don't know a good answer for that. On another note- I went to my church this past Sunday and got that last bit of closure that I didn't know I needed. It was not a great experience for me overall but I enjoyed the preacher's inspiring sermon and felt hopeful for that church's future when I left there. Now I feel truly free to look for a new church home where God will use me to do something for Him. It is going to be a long search, but I am excited about it. I know that when we find the right place for our family, we will know it.