Yesterday was such a long day. It started off sad with the visitation and I found myself thinking of life and what it means and what I'm doing with it. I always do that when something like this has happened. When I worked on the Pediatric Oncology unit, it was something we saw far too often. I end up doing a "self-evaluation" of sorts and usually get my priorities back in order and really see things a little more clearly. I ask myself things like : Is my life making a difference in someone else's (other than my immediate family)? Do I give as much of myself to my children and my husband as they deserve? Do I show love when it would be easier to hate (with my temper that is a tough one...)? Do I give mercy and compassion when it would be easier to pass judgement and discard someone? In other words- Do I strive to be more like Christ in my everyday actions, and do I realize how truly blessed I am? Usually the answer to those questions is 'Not really.' I need to work on that and I need to come back to what's important. This house stuff has been consuming our lives lately- which I know is partially necessary because there are just certain things that have to get done when you're getting ready to build. But we are done with most of the "big" decisions, so we can refocus our attention on things that last and things that really matter. I have to remind myself sometimes how short this life really is- it's just a breath, a vapor and then it's over. All that matters when you're gone is what you've done while you've been here. I posted the pic of my girls when they were smaller because it always makes me smile to look at pictures from those times. Too cute. Seems like last week they were that size! Anyway- don't mean to be depressing today, that's not my intention. Today I feel refreshed and a little renewed. I have stuffed all the prize bags for Emmaline's Pump It Up party this Friday night (my baby is going to be 5!!) I've done some laundry and now I'm waiting on some more Mommy calls to come in. We got the contracts on the lots we decided on yesterday, so we are ready to go with all of that. All in all- life is good. I've been slightly slack on posting, so I promise to do better with that, and that the next posts should be a bit more upbeat. People who know me don't know how to take me when I'm being serious! Emmaline and Annelise
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Thoughts on Life
Yesterday was such a long day. It started off sad with the visitation and I found myself thinking of life and what it means and what I'm doing with it. I always do that when something like this has happened. When I worked on the Pediatric Oncology unit, it was something we saw far too often. I end up doing a "self-evaluation" of sorts and usually get my priorities back in order and really see things a little more clearly. I ask myself things like : Is my life making a difference in someone else's (other than my immediate family)? Do I give as much of myself to my children and my husband as they deserve? Do I show love when it would be easier to hate (with my temper that is a tough one...)? Do I give mercy and compassion when it would be easier to pass judgement and discard someone? In other words- Do I strive to be more like Christ in my everyday actions, and do I realize how truly blessed I am? Usually the answer to those questions is 'Not really.' I need to work on that and I need to come back to what's important. This house stuff has been consuming our lives lately- which I know is partially necessary because there are just certain things that have to get done when you're getting ready to build. But we are done with most of the "big" decisions, so we can refocus our attention on things that last and things that really matter. I have to remind myself sometimes how short this life really is- it's just a breath, a vapor and then it's over. All that matters when you're gone is what you've done while you've been here. I posted the pic of my girls when they were smaller because it always makes me smile to look at pictures from those times. Too cute. Seems like last week they were that size! Anyway- don't mean to be depressing today, that's not my intention. Today I feel refreshed and a little renewed. I have stuffed all the prize bags for Emmaline's Pump It Up party this Friday night (my baby is going to be 5!!) I've done some laundry and now I'm waiting on some more Mommy calls to come in. We got the contracts on the lots we decided on yesterday, so we are ready to go with all of that. All in all- life is good. I've been slightly slack on posting, so I promise to do better with that, and that the next posts should be a bit more upbeat. People who know me don't know how to take me when I'm being serious! 
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That's what's so great about blogging...you can just put it all out there and then move on...
I'm sure the visitation was hard...that was so sad...I always have to re-think about things after hard and tough times roll around...it makes us all re-evaluate the good in our lives...life is short and we all spend to much time consumed with...stuff and things we cannot change...thanks for reminding me to do the same:)
Me too, I loved the questions in your blog. I am so with you, I love this post! Thanks for bringing me back! I know the sludge I feel about life sometimes is because I get to consumed with that around me! Great post!
And Happy Birthday to your Big Girl! 5 years is huge!!
And a mommy hug for you because she is growing up!!
Have fun in the bouncies!! Bounce once for me!!
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