Happy Days Are Here Again

No blog for a few days, but I have been working out some of my "issues" so I needed time. Of course, I don't blog about everything that is going on because I do have problems that are private to me, but I am definitely glad to be on the up swing for now. I have been having issues in my marriage with the "7-year itch." I never believed it was real until now. No, I did not come close to cheating on my husband or anything like that. I just got tired of being married and got tired of Brian and just kind of sick of everyday mundane life. You know, when the "magic" is gone. Or, when you just feel like you are co-existing in the same house with someone because that is basically what it is- and the actual relationship is barely there. I can see why the divorce rate is so high. But, I struggled with all of this for weeks and it just made me completely miserable and I just sank deeper and deeper into the abyss. Well- I got a book that was just the thing I needed. It is called "Every Woman's Marriage" and it is just amazing. It was in the Christian Living section at Barnes and Noble and was written by a woman who is married to a youth pastor. Just reading the first few paragraphs I knew it was what I needed. It was like this woman took the words out of my mind and wrote them in this book. In just a matter of a couple of days I was a different person. Talking to Brian about it all and most of all talking to God about it all really helped. I feel like marriage is kind of like a video game. Each year is a different level. If you can make it past a level, you get rewarded. Each level has gotten harder so far, but the rewards are wonderful. I am just glad to be back to myself again. Annelise's teacher gave me a good point the other day. She said "You know, I find myself fussing at my 2 year old all the time- it is always a battle of the wills and I can't seem to get her to understand that I know better and I only want what is good and best for her. " I agreed with that statement, having 2 strong willed females to deal with myself. She went on to say," You know I realized that this is what God must feel like when He is dealing with us." How true that is. I know that there have been times with my kids when I am screaming at them "Why won't you listen to me?? You think you know everything and you don't! Why can't you see that I am doing this for your own good, because I love you?!" I just want to grab them and shake them sometimes! Well I know that God must feel like that with me sometimes. He probably got really frustrated with me these past couple of weeks. I am so thankful that He gave me such a patient and loving husband who stood by me and did whatever he could to try and make me feel better and work through things these past few weeks. Poor Brian- I just unloaded on him a few times and he just took it. When the whole time the issues have been within me and had almost nothing to do with him. Anyway- no more blah mode- I am a happy gal and I have snapped out of my fog I was in. Other news- we closed on our lot and have picked out a lot of stuff for the new house so we won't be overwhelmed when the time comes to do all of that. I am finally excited about building and can't wait to start seeing it come together. For now, I need to go tag all of my consignment items for the children's consignment sale I do twice a year. Now that the snippety snip has occured, I can get rid of all the stuff I was saving "just in case".........